sometimes, my mind burst out in disappointment.

If I were just a little less responsible but am not the kind.

I can’t live in such mess.

it’s the forecast calls again.
I am not complaining. It is good to make my mind exercise a bit–i’ve had my share of slack time.

despite being tired—I can’t stop thinking of Chy’s cake. I hope I could talk to Anne tomorrow after my forecast call. Let me finish my work stuffs first and will most likely call her——cake concepts and the price. I hope i could afford it. Ano vaahhh..para namang debut ni Chy.

hehehhe….

She is turning 6 soon. parang kailan lang—-i know i need a new baby.

not from lottery.
I just sold my stocks with a SGD190 earning.
I certainly can get a kasambahay na.

Thank you for my patience and thank you stocks for the rally. I held it for 3 weeks.
On the other hand, I have 2 counters hold for 2 months that is not looking good yet. But I can wait

because am in a happy place!

I wished Chuck and Chy experienced this weather!

View from the hotel. Rm.813.

am lost of concept for Chy’s birthday. She is turning 6 in less than 3 weeks.

I want it to be low profile as possible .

I want it to be just what she wanted. So, while blogging am talking to her and have summarized her wishes in random;

1. swimming pool
2. swimming board
3. at school with classmates
4. cinderella cake ( dear, not another fondant please)
5. Bongga!

hayyyz..makabuang…
I wish we could just go to Bintan Island and spend family downtime and i could read a book but given the limited budget we have this month and that is due to Chuck’s sgd3k tuition fees—-we are tightening the belt baby.

and I know am not dreaming.

I am living my dream!

Beautiful life!!! Now, I can forget my toothache and will work from home today!

This is what he said to me over ym today. He is from Kenya and now lives in Perth, Australia.

[15:26] billy kipruto: hope u r well.still migrating to Oz in 2011?
[15:27] cheyennekyla: am praying for it.
billy kipruto: great to hear God spoils you with choices
[15:29] billy kipruto: I know u will be well wherever u r bse u r a child of a King

I cannot thank the Lord enough for the enormous gift . The gift of choices.

I don’t say this everyday but the Lord knows what is clogging in my mind for months now.

I am actually in a middle of dilemmas that sometimes I just ignore it so that I don’t get too taxed about it. But each time I see a new born, a pregnant mom, a new addition, I can’t help but stop, think and do some reality check with myself. When am I ready to conceive our 2nd child when i have a dozen box of pills in my cupboard. I feel so selfish.

Such decision is delayed due to a supposedly blessing which becomes a source of dilemma. A new job.
A job that after 3 months of joining has restored my sanity. A job that looks and feels promising. I don’t vie for promotion— but this time , i have loved the kind of contribution I could bring to this role. I am keen to grow here.

And this job led to another confusion —on the right time to move to Australia given that we were blessed with a PR visa. I can’ t help but get excited to a new adventure!

so my prayer is ….” God grant me a clear mind so I could decipher your direction , not my will Lord but yours” AMEN.

made it to TOP 5! Fabulous!! Not an appropriate answer to the Q&A portion ( kahit saang angle ko pa tingnan) but am proud of her!!!

Nakita nyo na rin ba si Ms. Teradata? LOL!!!

Am so not fab in this photo..Bwahahhaha….

make me go nuts………

Just over this weekend, she told me these, my gosh..my daughter doesn’t seemed to be a 5 year old.

i know what a butler is- a person who massage your butt

bwahahhaha….LOL!

ma, you are full right? yep, sweetheart ( while trying to start a slice of cream cake), then why are you still eating?

TOINKS…hULI ang katakawan ni mama!

Chy, can you pls press that button please? ( at the traffic light stop), oh, i can’t, that might be too hot!

Ang arte arte…hmmmppp!!!

Thanks to all who took the time to watch the long vid from Chy on her “decorator dream”. Am just in awe that it would be a waste not to share such an accomplishment. Chuck is not very expressive but I can certainly do that part!

One last thing–she wanted to have a movie entitled “Chy-chy in the fab lane!”

whaaaaaat????sabi nya bonggang bongga daw yun! bwahhahahhaha

Milestones from my pretty girl.

She initially wanted to become a teacher at 4, changed to becoming a ballerina teacher as she approached 5 and now, in less than a month, she will be 6 and she can’t stop changin’ her dreams. She wants to become a decorator ( read: interior designer)

My lovely daughter and her dreams.

In her time, she will look at this vid and can’t stop laugh at herself. I am so proud of you.

A gift. If this is not amazing- how would you call this? Thank you Lord!

in badminton. i am honing my skills and include this in my day dreams…hehhehehe

envious over Sally’s boots—I can’t have another one since I don’t live in winterland!

i chose to be satisfied with what I got from Nine West outlet back in Orlando.

Awww..am excited of my get up!!! bwahhahaha…once in a lifetime to…travelling to a winterland—–” yaya, i ready mo ang boots ko” bwhahahaha..am so Kimmy Dora!!!

of INSPIRATION would have been FACEBOOK.
But to some, it is a source of SPECULATION, GOSSIP, JUDGEMENT, and worse ENVY.

A husband and wife could break their relationship over FB, same with lovers.

An emotion can build up over it, sadly negative emo, depending which one you pick up.

A clean conscience can get rusty.

I will be saying goodbye to FB soon, not shutting down my account though but limit my squandering in the network. I would want a healthier choice– like watching KIMORA: Life in the Fab Lane! Can’t stop but somehow compared it to Kimmy Dora’s lifestyle!

My sister and I can’t stop laughing.

Kaya, LOL!!!! bwahhahaha…

On this note however, FB has helped me recognize who among my friends I could run to —mainly because I felt they needed someone to talk to and enjoy with or just spend the day with . Stream of emotions over there. Both good and bad.

I therefore conclude that social networking such as FB is IN!

My latest profile pic– i like….am inspired to get married again. saan kaya? nyahahahhaha!!!

I certainly am.

Some bad habit to break.

Goodbye!

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I love my life and I won’t allow you mess with it. I am doing this because I want to be pleasing in the eyes of Jesus.

“Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!” Matthew 25:23 (NLT)”

Yahoo..madame pa daw blessings si Lord!
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Chuck and I met up with Sally Sunday night after our badminton game- grabee…our whole body ached but then we managed to pull ourselves to meet Sally and see her joy buying her new pair of Charles & Keith boots. Don’t worry dear, I will carry it straight to Sydney and i know you can’t wait to use them, good for the month -end when you return from your vacation! I also did my shopping for Gracy’s LACOSTE…Nakaka -tempt tong mga babaeng ito. Ewan ko ba..nakakatanggal talaga ng stress ang shopping. i hate you shopping—nakakaaubos ka din ng pera!!! nyahhahaha!
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My stocks are not doing good now. In red= duguan.
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My life is painted in beautiful colors because I want it bright!
It’s a choice at the end of the day, although there are days that you ain’t have much of a choice. Living in the moment. Enjoying down time!

pls..forgive me, am not bragging—

I just want to tell myself of how a good feeling it is to fully own my home..Not buying it but simply renting it and call it our own.

Indeed, there is no tag price to privacy. I so luvvvvvvvvvvv it, I don’t care if it means extra dollars to sweat with.

Another note made me smile today—-my beautiful bday flowers from Dada and Chy bloomed like sunshine and I customized the arrangements. I can be a florist I guess.

Saturday is kinda lazy—I treasured the down time. I needed this very much.
Went to Library borrowed some books for Chy. I missed the due date of the last 3 books I borrowed , had to pay the SGD1.35 fines. Neat!