sometimes, my mind burst out in disappointment.

If I were just a little less responsible but am not the kind.

I can’t live in such mess.

I don’t say this everyday but the Lord knows what is clogging in my mind for months now.

I am actually in a middle of dilemmas that sometimes I just ignore it so that I don’t get too taxed about it. But each time I see a new born, a pregnant mom, a new addition, I can’t help but stop, think and do some reality check with myself. When am I ready to conceive our 2nd child when i have a dozen box of pills in my cupboard. I feel so selfish.

Such decision is delayed due to a supposedly blessing which becomes a source of dilemma. A new job.
A job that after 3 months of joining has restored my sanity. A job that looks and feels promising. I don’t vie for promotion— but this time , i have loved the kind of contribution I could bring to this role. I am keen to grow here.

And this job led to another confusion —on the right time to move to Australia given that we were blessed with a PR visa. I can’ t help but get excited to a new adventure!

so my prayer is ….” God grant me a clear mind so I could decipher your direction , not my will Lord but yours” AMEN.

I thank my instincts for selling KepCorp 2 days back. It went down to 8.73 today. Thankfully, I sold it at 8.87 the other day.

Enough of that. What happened to me these past days?

At work - I can say , am truly blessed to have a very supportive boss. Very supportive that he wants me out at 530 when i don’t have anything to do. But i felt that i have a lot of catching up to do. By bewilderment is– why is he trusting me this way?

While writing this, I am hoping to plan a dinner with spouse tomorrow. I like Friday! . There is so much to celebrate this week!

We’ve been wanting to visit HK since last year but the Aussie trip came in first, so we decided to defer HK of course due to budget constraints. But the 200 SG dollar came to picture , yep..that’s the total fare we need to cash out for the trip. Approximately, 6k pesos from SG-MLA-HK and return trip. We are lucky plus what made us even more blessed is when Canadian Embassy decided to refund us of the processing fee we paid 6 years ago in conjunction to our application withdrawal, that was Php56k pesos just right for our allowance.

Overall, our experience as a family is superb. We were not expecting anything out from this trip except for Chy to enjoy. She turned herself into a princess , a decision I didn’t influence but decided it on her own. Proudly, I could say that at age 5, she decides on her own most of the time , which certainly is a good thing and we can only do guide her and support her. Hong Kong was a memorable day to me because my little girl was very happy. She was mesmerized surrounded by the presence of real life Princesses and Prince.

Another family adventure this year! Thank you, Lord.
Maybe our last overseas trip this year. Rest naman ang bulsa

to wear my trench coat to office today. So, while doing my dress rehearsals, this is what I got.

Trench coat is not appropriate in Singapore weather. So, I ended up with this.

When I dropped by at G2000, i also found a very nice purple trench coat at 79sgd. Hmmm…Am seriously thinking if I needed that. But with the Aussie plans moved further , I wonder when I could use the stuff. June in HK is summer so inappropriate as well. Then, I don’t need to decide, I don’t need such. Well, this month is a tough month as I need to pay for tax,full payment of the Cavite dwelling reno, credit card majority of which is my parent’s travel ticks— in short, am keeping the belt tighter & my financial awareness more stringent in April. But I know, I need a new shoe ( wink ..wink..)

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One of my best at WV ( a former company) is getting married. Ghie, I can’t believe you have fallen in love. But it is really good for you girl . Finally, it is proven, you have EMOTIONS. The lady seldom displays such. I am busily looking for the right invite wordings. 11th of June would be magical for her and Anthro. Life is full of beautiful surprises. My friend amazingly surprised me.
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The moment I have given up expressing the truth is like given up my right for freedom of speech. I find myself speechless but my mind is overwhelmed.

Lately, something here don’t feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

The lady who conducted my VISA interview approved it!
Lovely Day!!!
Thank you Lord!

to help.

But some decisions are not totally at my hands. Like my manager also needs to decide. I would have wanted to offer the job to you and I don’t mind having to train you thoroughly. But then, not all decisions are mine to be made.

I know, there are no such thing as missed opportunity, may not be  your time yet.

sigh :0(

to shop….shopping like am shouting for it!!!!!!!!
Well, it is long weekend, hmmmm….

Again, i pray for another day of no rain, pls.
Last Saturday was an answered prayer to all kids excitedly looking forward on their picnic day. And it never rained, instead the sunny skies speed up its light to cover any ink of dark clouds. It was a beautiful day, we just took tons of sunblock lotion instead to keep away the burns.

This time- I pray there would be no rain tomorrow night and Sat morning as we get rev up to our camping night out with friends. I also thank God that our coughs ( mine and Chy’s)are gone although, we still have this little after-shock of colds. I hope and pray it will fully go away!

A recap of how the picnic day was- as I often said, we love the outdoors. ( bisan sobra na ko ka tan, kaya di oobra ang glutha sa kin..)
Preparing for the relay. Mother @ Daughter tandem.

Artists’ corner here.

w/ my Chinese teacher.

w/ my K1 classmates.

having fun with activities



Time to slow down, chill out.

Beautiful day! In fact, dada was 24 hours awake before this event as he was called for overtime the night before. Well, it is her first picnic with her classmates and schoolmates - it is big deal indeed. Anyway, it was only half day and we all dozed to sleep after this. Gipangkapoy!

Sipon and ubo came afterwards. Nyahahhaha..

If you could ditch the errors- but you cannot undo what is wrong. Life means responsibilities. Tough..tough..tough…. ( chest pains, throat lump ) Controlling emotions.

nyahahhahha..She was born with an element of fashion and loads of smiles and drama:-)
Just like this one.

mag smile ka naman anak. ang gwapo ng tatay mo oh. waaaaaaaahhhhhhhh..

Ps. Gracy, la ko ning daug sa Sweep..but i feel like am the biggest winner with this beautiful family with me!

If only I could quit——but a lot of circumstances hinder me to do so.
My emotions are drained…..
One more stretch….and I dunno what will happened.
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But there is someone up there- who was and is and forever there.
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and I say I have HOPE.
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ning abot na jud. nothing audacious- simply the refund from Cebu Pacific came after 10 months of waiting, am 9k richer which in fact sort of patches up with Joan’ s fare in coming to Singapore. Well, it saves a lot sweat you know. Credit card bills! I am making myself promise not to go beyond SGD150 on my monthly charges of DBS CC. And for the last 2 months, I fail, but after my promise 1, here’s my promise 2: I will pay all the charges monthly and no way to finance charges. I have been consistently successful.

naa pa pod mi gipaabot, amo nalang i abot sa limot para if moabot, pleasant surprise.
we keep on celebrating while we are waiting. We consumed one bottle of red wine pinaabot and so we bought a new bottle of chardonnay to fill the gap. we keep on waiting.

Meantime, cheers to unexpected joys!

in this paradise.

Earth is my paradise and everytime I live fully with this life, I encounter insurmountable challenges. But I thrive in positive thoughts. But that doesn’t mean I am too good to be true.

I literaly say the F*ck words in certain disasters but I tried not to—, it is human nature to be caught up in such mess. But, I primarily believe, I am too good to be true and too blessed to be stressed.

I look forward to the next 2 days of my life- it is weekend, my favorite.