Started explaining to Chy what Happy Easter is all about. I am more than thankful I have a very witty little girl-she did all the shopping last Thursday. Too elated of her white high heeled Princess Belle shoe. My wonderful!

======================================================
I do not know why one cannot be consistently happy, I am a believer of happy thoughts, positive thinking and joyful disposition. But there will always be some spoilers. My moods
=======================================================
So, I did get a renewed feeling after I attended the mass last Sunday. The praise songs always change and led me to a different perspective. I hope , I could stay that way forever - overwhelmed of God’s love and believe that HE is ENOUGH. My faith!

=======================================================
Why is it difficult to decipher that it is our individual responsibility to change for the better. My Goal!
=======================================================
It seemed to me that in telling in TRUTH, you’ve got to hurt somebody first. Strange. Wishing that one day, they will get the value of your HONESTY. My Thoughts!
======================================================
And lift up to God all the emotions, decisions that I am bound to make one of these days. My Fate!
======================================================

surround yourself with happy thoughts?

Do you drift your mind to it or you live in the moment and find the breathtaking moments to live by. Or perhaps, you do both?

Lately, I have been fighting over negative circumstances surrounding me, well, the source of which can vary. I have tried…so many times to convince myself to filter out those stuffs that seemed to stress me, especially if I don’t have any means to change the circumstance. I won some battles and I lost sometimes but it has improved much of the person I am now.

AWARENESS
Like , I can readily recognize if such circumstance could lead me to angry thoughts. Man, I have a bad temper- my husband could attest to it and am working on it. Every time, a slight temperature of anger is running in my veins—I talk to myself about it. And I realized, there is no point of getting angry. In many circumstance, I convert anger to laughter, it has worked. And being an observer myself— I realized anger, torrid words is not helpful outlet( well, shopping does) . The more you lack control of your emotions, the more irrational you are to society. Hence, you cause other people’s irritation and bad mood.

EXPERIENCE
What helped me reach the state of Awareness? Oh, yeah, it takes another angry person to help myself mull over. I witnessed how it is to be in a middle of a moody person, no amount of ” giving the benefit of the doubt” has worked for me. To be just surrounded by an irritable type is one way for me to cope with mine. I told myself—I don’t want to live life that way. I went through my own journey and mastered its impact. I talk it over to my husband and now, I can’t stop but laugh and learn from it. Heck with perfection.

Of course, such journey is incomplete without the other side of the coin. I have my idols in terms of patience, coolness and maturity. I am surrounded by them too. And they are my inspiration.

See, each person we encounter everyday in our life is with a purpose. Including those who seemed to be causing you pain, irritation and bad mood. The heart of the matter is —how you handle them. I have changed my outlook now. I’ve got to master this.

Have a great weekend everyone! We will start to pack for our Aussie trip over the weekend.

on you this Wednesday. That was God’s message to me today.
The less stressful job I have now ( yipeee!!!) gave me the chance to feed my soul again. I was reading a very nice message about Sowing Seeds and somehow relate it to my life. How do I seed God’s seeds on earth. How did I relate to my brothers and sisters on earth? It led me to pray for forgiveness. I have stumbled so many times. On the other hand—I am glad I have spread positive vibes, good cheer and inspiration to others! Minsan hinde.sowee.

I have a prayer to make —-that other people will also realize that it is important for them to be aware of the impact they have on the people surrounding them. Lord, hirap talaga maging alagad ninyo pero …am fighting the demons away!

sorry- i am lagging behind. Facebook is eating much of my time lately with all the photo upload, tagging, catching up with news feeds from friends, so much to do.

Bakasyon engrande in Pinas- I was totally tired including Dada and Chy and of course all members of my family from the neverending parties, reunions, gosh, am not very young to sustain the sunod2 na walang tulugan. But it was a blast! We enjoyed it to the maximum level——-with the thought that we ain’t sure we could visit Pinas in 2010.

Our 2009 was indeed lovely. I can’t find the most appropriate words to describe how it was but it was a year of roaring blessings. ROAR……………..

1. HEALTH- it was the pinkest. Thank you Lord for this ultimate gift , I couldn’t ask for more. Pls. take care of our parents who are aging and may not have the strength of youth- lead them to enjoy life to the fullest without necessarily compromising health.

2. PATIENCE- from all the people surrounding me. I know I wasn’t easy to be with, and sometimes, I am difficult. It was actually my best behavior- oh yeah , I tried.

3. HUMILITY- I am nothing , even worthless- thanks for growing with me.

4. GENEROSITY- being at the best of wealth this year, the way to spend is to share!

5. WISDOM - the daily dose is just amazing , thanks for this grace.

My priority in 2010- is to be better in mastering my emotions- especially my TEMPER and I will continue to propagate my goal in LIFE. I will continue to share abundantly- spread joy, sow love, give hope and shine light!

As a powerful reminder. Got this from Bo Sanchez’s writing. Apparently, he is my fave.

I intentionally allowed to delay this writing- for I really wanted to get rid of my rage before I totally become unfair……Lord, I don’t want to meddle with other people’s business as I prefer World Peace. I WANT TO BE TOTALLY NOT AFFECTED , but am a weakling- I am.

Oh, yeah, to give benefit to my confusion, there must be a very impt reason behind.

Note to self : I am good :-), thanks to the delay.

that i am happy and thankful.
that i am lucky.
that God is enough.
I am crying overwhelmed of HIS Love.

Lead my life - to be a better person I want to become.

There will be changes along the way. Sometimes -nakakalason ang reality, you wanted to save a treasure and the more you look closely to it- you will find that actually it wasn’t a gem at all. And you started getting bothered , not only once and it recurs- it is becoming unhealthy. The seemingly beautiful like an angel is freaking you out. I don’t know if it just me all along- I knew I was different but I was working hard- to be better and better, trying to be kinder ,more generous and more sincere. But there are hiccups, yeah - I should better know that - mostly provocation, a test of attitude. Much to that I call my hastiness. I could decide out of intuition- I could be in jovial mood one day and could do hasty decisions out from my emotion that leads to regrets in the long run. As what I told myself- I am on the process, life can never be smooth sailing all the time, conflicts are just around the corner- i just have to be ready of my responses.

And from Mangie today, “If someone takes unfair advantage of you, use the occasion to practice the servant life. No more tit-for-tat stuff. Live generously” A gentle reminder.

I should share this to hubby- we are actually on same boat, we need this reminder.

I suddenly have the feeling of hitting the sand soon…I missed it. I better plan our weekend- hmmm..i will make it extra special. I wish to go out for a honeymoon again..Maybe in December

Ghie shared this to me.
“Consider it all joy, my brothers, when you encounter various trials, for you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. And let perseverance be perfect, so that you may be
perfect and  complete, lacking in nothing” (James 1:2-4)

She is the kind of friend who seldom forward mails to me. And it is typically surprising to find one in my Inbox. It is indeed beautiful.

And I could relate this to what Resty sent to me through SMS about 2 weeks ago;

” God said: If you never felt pain , how would you know I’m a Healer, if you never felt sadness , how would you I’m a comforter. Child, if life is perfect, would you still know me? ”

LIFE is designed to be imperfect and no matter how you tweak it, it can never be otherwise. That is why- there is patience, endurance, understanding, kindness , love…It is indeed challenging to be human. However, I chose to live this than living a half-life.

Amidst the tremendous life challenges that is seemingly endless- I always find peace in knowing that I am a very pampered creation. Sometimes, i wonder - what I have done to deserve this amazing grace I experience everyday? There is always a beautiful circumstance that catches my breath away!

let me remind you that there are things you just have to let go.
So, focus on your priorities. Never mind the hassle, the inconsistencies, non-conformity of your stds- all will be well. No, it is not a promise but then, we have been trying so much lately on how to just ignore the little stuffs- move on ..go on…To heck with impossibility- yes, you can. Be brave and go! You are a survivor!

PS. We will survive.

“whenever there is human, there is an opportunity to be kind.”

last night was draining. Such an irony on eating but the way it was structured- i find it draining.

Small bits of the 9 courses- typical Chinese. The food was yummy and i was very full but I got so sleepy and so tired after the meal. Not the usual reaction but I felt bloated. But it was a very decent meal , our team seldom went out for dinner- well, at least last night, we have rekindle our being a team- we sort of forgotten that, —- indeed, it is dark times. Hahahhaha…

But as I speak - last night is more of a celebration of my emancipation… I have drawn the lines and still in healthy connection with each other- this indeed is the biz world- no personal strings attached. Better than ever.

And yesterday- Chuck was celebrating something great on his career- he was renewed for another year! Fantastic-we are getting there. Just in time! We just knew that May is our luckiest month since 1999. The best is yet to come!

==== Each of our prayers were answered===== and we are not in a rush=====Lord, know that we enjoyed the waiting time=======we are so thrilled! ================

me again. I am referring to Bo’s recent write up about rising up early. Yes, indeed it is true, early morning winds are soothing and my day seemingly becomes impeccable and nuisance-free if I start the day right by rising up early.

I recommend you visit Bo Sanchez blogs- very refreshing and inspiring!

How I not filtered anything I write here. The loneliest of my emotions even if I do not handle yet I bravely ventilate, even if that exposes my weakest link.

Oh yeah, it was supposed to be Monday, I came early in the office ( I wish I could arrive as early as this always) but why does it feel like one of those loneliest Mondays of my life where all I want to do is hide from everyone, create my own space , be myself and just be myself. A place where you could shout and be angry. I am angry because I have the right to feel it.

I could run, fret and sigh. No positive thought to linger on today. I have to remind myself that indeed there are times such as this.

You carry a happy soul but your day is just tainted.

Not because of the pay cut, but merely because there are emotions dragging me down. So sick of it.