I certainly am.

Some bad habit to break.

Goodbye!

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I love my life and I won’t allow you mess with it. I am doing this because I want to be pleasing in the eyes of Jesus.

“Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!” Matthew 25:23 (NLT)”

Yahoo..madame pa daw blessings si Lord!
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Chuck and I met up with Sally Sunday night after our badminton game- grabee…our whole body ached but then we managed to pull ourselves to meet Sally and see her joy buying her new pair of Charles & Keith boots. Don’t worry dear, I will carry it straight to Sydney and i know you can’t wait to use them, good for the month -end when you return from your vacation! I also did my shopping for Gracy’s LACOSTE…Nakaka -tempt tong mga babaeng ito. Ewan ko ba..nakakatanggal talaga ng stress ang shopping. i hate you shopping—nakakaaubos ka din ng pera!!! nyahhahaha!
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My stocks are not doing good now. In red= duguan.
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My life is painted in beautiful colors because I want it bright!
It’s a choice at the end of the day, although there are days that you ain’t have much of a choice. Living in the moment. Enjoying down time!

pls..forgive me, am not bragging—

I just want to tell myself of how a good feeling it is to fully own my home..Not buying it but simply renting it and call it our own.

Indeed, there is no tag price to privacy. I so luvvvvvvvvvvv it, I don’t care if it means extra dollars to sweat with.

Another note made me smile today—-my beautiful bday flowers from Dada and Chy bloomed like sunshine and I customized the arrangements. I can be a florist I guess.

Saturday is kinda lazy—I treasured the down time. I needed this very much.
Went to Library borrowed some books for Chy. I missed the due date of the last 3 books I borrowed , had to pay the SGD1.35 fines. Neat!

There is a warm feeling that comes when you uplift someone—when someone laughs at your jokes and enjoys your company. I am always cautious at ensuring I don’t throw away my baggages to others who are seemingly down at one time. I stick to my purpose to keep one spirit up!

But of course—I also have my downtime. Luckily—-am not under the shadow of those days! Am on the verge of —-Happiness!

is having a sister……..

Am on the verge of Luckiness!
For earning about 100sgd from my stocks ( which was bought at relatively high price) . Hold it for 2 weeks. I was at loss position for a week. It scares me. Hehhehe.

Am on the top of Thankfulness!

For my sisters’s love for my daughter and my family. For making themselves available anytime I call them to Singapore without conditions attached.

I like our tan. Well, we don’t have much of a choice. But uso to ngaun sa Hollywood…nagkakagulo sila sa kulay namen. In fairness!

Sometimes, I find it hard to reconcile why after all these years—–I will have to continue to believe that I will have to remain strong for others.  Why people just choose to get stuck and tends to be dependent like there is no growth and maturity going on with their lives.

Just the same old reason, why can’t you move on and don’t drag me behind.

For some strange reason, am not very happy today. I thought I will be as I go home from work, but there is something I am trying to decipher with my life now. There is somethin’ am trying hard to work and hold on.

And I fervently pray that in God’s perfect time- I will know what to do.

I am in conflict with myself and that is the reason why my joy is not complete.

Many Thanks to people who never seemed to give up on me.
Majority of these ———- is represented by my husband.

The guy who can’t give up on being a child. Hehhehehe..

For the things you have sacrificed for me————-i wish you could hang in there, no matter what.

It is not your birthday yet, so am not going to greet you till next month and we celebrate your day in Hongkong!

I am coming to a very odd feeling that in times I am happiest, a spoiler comes to the scene and manages to rob the joy I feel within. It is like you spark has gone off, a candle lighted and yet blown off, an electricity pulled from its plug. It is not NICE.

Sometimes, I felt that being happy means the ability to get hurt one day, someday, anyday where you least expect it. I don’t want to reside to that feeling because it simply means, I have given up my ability to be happy.

They say , you cannot give what you don’t have. In another point of view, I say, you just can’t give up what I already have. And sometimes, there is no point holding on to this feeling——–

that life is great and will even be greater!
that no matter how sad you are, you can pretend to happy
that you can hold on to the positive energy left of you
that there will be better days…

Oh, yeah…nobody could grab that away from me……….not some LOSERS>>>>>>>>you freak!

For the second time, we watched the film at home and this time—Chy had so many unfathomable questions. I thank God that HE gave me such a wonderful , smart kid. But sometimes, it demands much of my brain. Hhahahhahha…Katakot takot na tanong and never ending. That she had to beg for one last one before I could finally close my eyes. Chuck and I were laughing at her last night when she said, ” One last Please??”. OMG! she has grown so fast, I couldn’t catch up to all the information she had put forth on her brain.
Hahhahaha…am stressed…And to the Mother Award goes to——Me!
Wala syang choice—ako ang nanay nya….

” When I see you smile, I can face the world! ”

Fresh from the mailbox.

My Advance Mother’s Day Card from Chy.

No amount of job promotion, salary increase, bonus and etc…is equivalent to the joy of getting a card from Chy. I am indeed a very special creation for I am a Mom!

To my mama- I am proud of how you raised me & I love you.

I can’t open the card just yet- I will have to wait for Chy and we open this together. It is good I worked from home today.

ang 1st of May- and my stomach is still bulging. I am yet 52 kgs and there ain’t hope to pull this down. Di bale, there is a way to hide the bel bel off.

So what I have been praying for?

- That God give me the patience to focus on the good things and give other people the benefit of the doubt. Masakit ni sa dughan. But then, there are a lot of wonderful things happening around me that is worth focusing on.
- That God will grant Pem’s desire to work in SG
- That I will make sense to my new job and will enjoy it.
- That Toni’s health will improve.

The guilt feeling doesn’t wears off.
I apologized to Chy for being a bitchy mom to her. I am not supposed to flare up that way. She is just a kid. My God, I apologize. I was too much.

She reminded me that it is almost Mother’s Day and that she is preparing a card for me ( hahahha..it was supposed to be a class secret)

I love you my daughter….I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you.

My Chy is back to school mode and has fully recovered from cough, fever and colds.
It must be the weather. So extremely hot in the morning and raining hard in the afternoon.

I have recovered too.

Ready na ko magluto…harharharhar…
I need to be perked up and focus on positive thoughts……….again ( like I used to be)

is tough.
I can’t wait for the world to change. I am growing to become the person I dislike. It is so silly of me to let the pain throw my heart to the ground.

But I could be wrong.

And to be very honest of how I feel will mean, I will mess up much of my life. Because am used to walk away rather than spill over. I am not good at controlling bad behavior. Like this morning, I could easily throw away the mess—send over the bad message ,but I chose not to. I will just sleep to it. It is unhealthy. Sometimes, it feels that the train is moving too fast, I don’t have time to recover my balance. It is not genuine to go on this way. I am slowly refusing my right to live. I am not sure how to survive this.

And moving on would mean—I am not the same person. I am not the same lover. Not the same friend.

2 came today and it’s my quota already. No more purchases please. No to shopping. It is not entertaining anymore when I reminded myself of the many obligations we need to pay this month.
Full payment of Cavite house reno, insurance, credit card, etc.

This one ..l almost couldn’t breath. Not good for my size. So might go well with Joan as she claims to be the fittest among the sisterhood.

This is designed for the preggy look type. Then maybe I could tolerate this, I have a not so small tummy eh. In short, dako tiyan.

Good night , i have a very exciting day tomorrow and I wouldn’t want it ruined by anyone. Overdose of self control and patience. Lord, grant me wisdom and calmness. Yahoo…Friday na!

Hubby sent an sms : Happy Anniversary

Wife ( acting blurry) : Can you please remind me why March 24? ( we were married on Dec 21)

Hubby : Magic date.

Wife : Of course I remember, am just trying to be sweet.

Hahhaha…it’s me again. My poetic side. I was expecting my hubby to respond in iambic manner to remind me of why March 24. But then, why? I know for one, he is not the poetic one. And, yes, it is magical. He could capture it in 2 words while me I am the one who has the difficulty of finding the finest words to define why March 24 is special to us.

Maybe in 3. I love us.

( Putik, hirap mag crop)

you just have to fill yourself with loving thoughts and that includes these beautiful mem’ries to cherish.

Just as you enter Manly. One of Sydney’s seaside destination. It’s a gem, 35 mins away from main city. Beautiful and we are happy.

Next stop is Queen Victoria Building. Stunning architectural work. Grabee..nakakalula.

Hyde Park is a very huge and relaxing. Care for a chat in the park? We had a great time there as a family! I had my cappuccino and Chy had her snack. Dada loved the laid back atmosphere. Peeps actually lay there and just doze off.

The City Hall and St. Mary’s Cathedral is also a rocker. I am so in love with the lovely city.

And the very famous. Sydney Opera House will always be a favorite.
My bro in law told me that the architect who created this dazzling work of art got his inspiration while peeling off oranges. The idea sparkled.

Ayan, di na ako inis. Am fully inspired to travel again. This June in HK, then, next maybe is Japan- it is nagging on my list. But definitely not this year yet or maybe?Come to me, travel money.