and I know am not dreaming.

I am living my dream!

Beautiful life!!! Now, I can forget my toothache and will work from home today!

There is a warm feeling that comes when you uplift someone—when someone laughs at your jokes and enjoys your company. I am always cautious at ensuring I don’t throw away my baggages to others who are seemingly down at one time. I stick to my purpose to keep one spirit up!

But of course—I also have my downtime. Luckily—-am not under the shadow of those days! Am on the verge of —-Happiness!

is having a sister……..

Am on the verge of Luckiness!
For earning about 100sgd from my stocks ( which was bought at relatively high price) . Hold it for 2 weeks. I was at loss position for a week. It scares me. Hehhehe.

Am on the top of Thankfulness!

For my sisters’s love for my daughter and my family. For making themselves available anytime I call them to Singapore without conditions attached.

I like our tan. Well, we don’t have much of a choice. But uso to ngaun sa Hollywood…nagkakagulo sila sa kulay namen. In fairness!

Many Thanks to people who never seemed to give up on me.
Majority of these ———- is represented by my husband.

The guy who can’t give up on being a child. Hehhehehe..

For the things you have sacrificed for me————-i wish you could hang in there, no matter what.

It is not your birthday yet, so am not going to greet you till next month and we celebrate your day in Hongkong!

ang 1st of May- and my stomach is still bulging. I am yet 52 kgs and there ain’t hope to pull this down. Di bale, there is a way to hide the bel bel off.

So what I have been praying for?

- That God give me the patience to focus on the good things and give other people the benefit of the doubt. Masakit ni sa dughan. But then, there are a lot of wonderful things happening around me that is worth focusing on.
- That God will grant Pem’s desire to work in SG
- That I will make sense to my new job and will enjoy it.
- That Toni’s health will improve.

The guilt feeling doesn’t wears off.
I apologized to Chy for being a bitchy mom to her. I am not supposed to flare up that way. She is just a kid. My God, I apologize. I was too much.

She reminded me that it is almost Mother’s Day and that she is preparing a card for me ( hahahha..it was supposed to be a class secret)

I love you my daughter….I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you.

My cuz Janice is confirmed preggy and got a first glimpse of her baby with a heartbeat. I am so amazed of the miracle of procreation. I can’t stop but get mystified of the magic behind pregnancy and the joy and pains of being a first time mom. Yes, it ain’t easy and it won’t make your life comfortable but there is peace in;

1. feeling a little creature in your tummy. I could still remember how surprised I am seeing my tummy deformed of her movements. It was crazy and beautiful.

2. The first time you see her actually staring at you ( it will take a while after birth)

3. The first time you hold hands

4. the list goes on and on.

I still feel so elated each time my daughter longing to embrace me and cuddle her to bed. Same feeling I share each time I hear she exchanges ” I love you” with her dad. Because I know that in few years time, she won’t be frequently changing I love yous with us.

I still feel astounded of her never-ending queries of the facts of life and sharing the joy with her each time she learns a new skill, a new plant, a dance, a song.

I still feel that I don’t deserve the merit to be her parent.

I still feel that I am not going to be a perfect mom to her.

and I love her so much.